Alas! The Show has begun! AGAIN

Long Time no shows. It seems lk the theater has gone blank. All these can I say I was busy. No way! But didnot find time to write something. Today I was gng thru the posts, and found myself grasping on to everything I wrote. Somehow I do not know my memory is fading. I keep forgetting eveything. I don't why. This is a very dangerous trend, which I cant allow to go on. I am trying my level best to recollect every minutest of detail. But when u try to hold on to somethng a bit tighter, it slips thru. I am not making any excuse but I need to gear up bcz right in front of me is the biggest challenge of my life. I do not know how am I going to concentrate. There are many tough challenges I am going to face with during my US stint. Hey boy! who am I fooling around. Stint @ US. Will I ever return to India. From the bottom of heart I want to, bt is it feasible. I donot know.

The last time I made an entry, life was totally different. I was not even prepared to leave my country. I was happy with my meager 17k(now its a bit more) a month salary job(although I hadn't joined it bk then). I donot know when I will read it next whether I will laugh @ my salary o will I brood over my decision of leaving my IT job. If I brood, wht an a$$h0le I have become. Anywyz as i know, I will be leaving for a mediocre US university next month. I have set high goals for myself. Everybody over here thinks what a gr8 achievement!!! Deep down I know its nothing. I have not even put in anything. Is this modesty? I guess no! No its not.

today it ws quite an ordinary day. An avg day in the life of a mediocre professional. Nothing more.